The prompt reads “Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for”. I have to admit, I’m having a lot of trouble concentrating on writing about it because this sentence ends in a preposition.
Also, how can I only pick one? My husband? My daughter? My son? My best friend? My Mom? That one girl in junior high that told me that I shouldn’t do terrible things to my body to get thinner because the reason boys didn’t like me had nothing to do with my weight, but my lack of self-confidence? That one boy who proved her right?
The truth is that my life is packed full of people who make it worth living.
So why does Day 7 feel like a trap? Why do I feel like I will say the wrong thing? I’ve been putting this post off for a full week because I feel like no matter what I answer I will offend someone. This is like the Sophie’s Choice of blog posts.
Says the woman who just said her life was full of people who make her life worth living.
Apparently I also feel like my life is full of people watching and judging, but I guess that is what happens when you sign up to write 30 days of truth in a very public forum.
The real truth? I have never felt that my life was not worth living. I have been very sad. I have been very angry. I have felt depressed and maybe even worthless, but never like I was going to end my life. (Except one time out of spite, but I was a teenager and that is an entirely different story.) My life has always been worth living. I never needed just one person to pull me up out of a hole and save me.
Nobody has ever done that for me. I have a lot of people that have made my life significantly better. A lot. But a single person who has made my life worth living?
Is it wrong to say that I make my life worth living? Probably. Look at the ego on Sarah! It isn’t vanity. My self-confidence is nowhere near its peak, but I work really hard to be who I am, and I work even harder to enjoy life. I go out of my way to do things that are fun and to surround myself with people that I like being with. I make up games for my kids to make cleaning more fun. I find ways to amuse myself when I am bored. I bust my ass trying to make a career out of things I enjoy so that I don’t have to do the things that I hate. I also was born into a good situation, I have always had parents that love me who were able to take care of me and support me financially. I married a really good guy who got a good job and we had healthy, happy children.
This post is sort of spinning out of focus, but you know what I mean, right? It know it is all out of order, but if I go back in and edit this it will never get published. So here it goes.
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Following are the writing prompts for 30 Days of Truth. Up next is day 8, so don’t mess with me in the comments.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself