My Year of Jubilee

I started referring to January 1, 2011 as “My Day of Jubilee” when I got tickets to the Winter Classic.

It was a reference to “The West Wing” and I really just liked yelling things like “YOU WILL NOT RUIN MY DAY OF JUBILEE!” when threatened with terrible weather or people talking trash about the Washington Capitals.

Somewhere in there I decided to make 2011 my year of jubilee. Sure, partially because I enjoyed all the shouting but also because it was beginning to seem like just by saying it out loud I was actually happier.

I was going to be happy in 2011 dammit. I spent far too much of 2010 being angry.

Sure, I come off as lighthearted here most of the time, but you know what they say. You only see what the blogger wants you to see. People in my real life have said the following things about me this year.

You always seemed stressed and overworked.
You are never happy about anything.
You carry around too much guilt.

Mommy, you yell a lot.

Maybe I did, but this year will be different. This is my year of jubilee.

I thought that my year of jubilee was unique. What I didn’t know was that years of jubilee already existed. Nuns have them. Queens have them. Hebrews have them. Many cultures celebrate them every 49 or 50 years. Years of Jubilee exist and they aren’t just about bliss, they involve reflection, returning property and forgiveness.

Forgiveness.

There is that word again. It has been coming up a lot lately.

Forgiveness is not my strong suit. I like to hold on to my anger. If you have done something to make me mad I want to remember it. I don’t ever want to get to the fool me twice.

Being angry is easy. Letting it go is hard.

But I am going to try.

Because this is my year of jubilee.

I started cleaning out my closets both mentally and physically last year. I am well on my way to getting rid of a lot of things I don’t need anymore. This ranges from shoes to jobs to friends – my old suitcases as well as emotional baggage.

If it is a drag and not making my life better I do not need it. If it is one sided I do not want it.

I have this theory that if I say it enough times it will be true. This is the power of positive thinking, The Secret, my mental dream board, a mantra. You can call it whatever you want to call it. I call it my year of jubilee.

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  1. This is another one of those posts I should print and hang in my closet (right there with Susan Wagner’s post about what to wear to BlogHer and Chookooloonks’ one about badassery). Pretty soon, I won’t need to paint.

    I know what it’s like to hold on to anger. I still haven’t forgiven being left home for game 7 of the 1975 World Series. I should get past that one, and a whole lot more.

    Thanks for sharing this. Let the jubilee begin!

  2. I labeled 2010 my Best Year Ever at the beginning and it held up to the name. I, too, had to do a lot of cleaning. I feel so much lighter and happier starting 2011, you have no idea.

    (PS I miss your Top Chef recaps but I am making myself feel better by eating at Stephanie’s restaurant Girl and the Goat while I’m in Chicago next week.)

  3. If someone is an asshole to you, instead of holding on to anger, just shout, “YOU WILL NOT RUIN MY YEAR OF JUBILEE!” and please, for the love of God, do it when I am standing near you. I’d love to see that.

    This is a great post with a great sentiment behind it. Good luck!!

  4. I’m not good at forgiveness either.

  5. Congratulations and what a way to start it off! We all deserve to be jubilant.

  6. smart aleck says:

    You are my hero—I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately, and this post makes SO much sense to me.

    I read years ago that the only person who can make you happy is you, and while I “know” that, I often forget. Giving the year an official title sets a standard…and of course there will be crappy ass days, but we can either sandbag them at the end of the day or let them flood into the days and weeks ahead.

    Thanks for the reminder. And now, off to throw out something.

  7. Well you know what they say, if you’ve got a logo it must be true.

  8. Jubilee, indeed. I’m on it. Cherries optional.

  9. Brilliant! Can it be my year of jubilee too?

  10. I do like jubilee. What flavor does it come in?

  11. Shall we also bring you all the muffins and bagels in all the land?

    That’s the only other west wing reference I can think of.

    I am totally digging your year of jubilee. I wish I was as … jubilant about this year.

  12. I turned 40 towards the end of 2009, and decided that 2010 was going to be MY YEAR, the best in my life so far.

    Didn’t quite work out that way, so I’m applying for a do-over in 2011, and I will definitely call it my Year of Jubilee. Thanks for sharing.

  13. Mine is, remember the small positives when I get so dam negative.

    I hope that your 2011 is amazing Sarah.

  14. I LOVE it. (And I love you all that much more for referencing West Wing!)

  15. wow you and i are alike in the forgiveness department. thing is i have a memory gap. apparently, i can forget and cannot forgive. yes, am working on it this year too. May you and I less angry in 2011!

  16. Right on!! 2011 WILL be the best year of our lives so far!!!Hooray us. We are the Luckiest!!!

  17. I love this! it’s definitely something i need to do as well. less anger—more JUBILEE! :)

  18. You know what they call you, don’t they? Inspirational. And a show-off.
    Jubilee is such a celebratory word. I’m gonna stick with “The Year I Get My Shit Together”.

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